So here goes;
I have never been the type of person that saves my thoughts, never owned a proper diary and when I did, I used it as a doodle pad to doodled hundreds of little hearts and stars and funny faces, is that the moment you realise that you are a dreamer, a creative or; just in need of some Ritalin?
When I was young I would sit for hours trying to think up topics to write about, but instead of putting pen to paper, I would hit a blank, my thoughts on topics would consume me, no real spice and substance would come out. Thanks to my “ADHD” and hyper personality I would quickly drop the pen and run around trying to find something else to do to avoid the fact that my brain was blank… I would clean, neaten, sort, organise and while doing all these chores (which by the way I absolutely love doing and do not see as chores… that is no joke, I enjoy cleaning and neatening and sorting and organising. I had a de-cluttering company in South Africa and now that I’m living in Israel’, I have to do a lot of that, there is always cleaning and dishes and washing and folding and organising and neatening…) While cleaning I get some of my best ideas, I start thinking up a variety of ideas! But; once again the moment I sit still with that pen in hand, when that quiet moment finally arrives after I put down my broom or mop, the ideas and creative processes pass me by. Exit my brain. “poof” Almost like I’ve been “wiped clean”. Maybe having a pc in front of me will help me focus and I’ll be able to get the ideas out of my brain and into the world? Maybe?
If you are reading this, I have succeeded… baby step number 1.
So here goes;
Here I am, Living in Israel, writing down my thoughts and feeling’s about where I’ve been and how I’ve landed myself here…
and all I can do is hit a blank!
BUT THEN, Something really amazing happened, I looked up and realised that I started a blog, a blog about me talking about things and there are words on the page. Well they are on my computer screen, but they are there! VICTORY. I did it, all by myself without help from Ritalin. This is the first entry of my mish mash of thoughts and if you continue watching this space your life might change or it might not, but I know mine is changing and my spice rack is getting fuller everyday and perhaps your spice rack will get spicier and more colourful reading my blogs.